July 18, 2010 Day 4

Day 4

Weight: 128



So, today was the first day I cheated. Uggh. I know. And here's why. First of all, on the cleanse I highly suggest you actually drink all the lemonade drink you can. I didn't. This morning in a rush to go over my lesson for Relief Society again (and get myself and everyone out the door on time for church), I drank only 16 oz of the witch's brew. Our church is at one and I figured I could make it until 4 p.m. without having a drink. Wrong. Wrong. Wrong. Not only did I not get enough water, I didn't get enough calories and I literally collapsed on the floor while making dinner for the family. I didn't rush to make a drink right away when I got home from church which was a big mistake. I had to put my little girl down to sleep because she hadn't napped ALL DAY, and then we did a bit of cleaning up. I just didn't think about it. That is until I was on the floor. I literally couldn't get up and Matt MADE me eat something. He was really worried. I was seeing spots and I had the worst headache and I literally felt awful. I just started crying. I have read blogs and blogs of this cleanse and others have warned to get enough of the drink or you will feel weak and dizzy and awful. I have a friend who suggests just downing a few tablespoons of pure maple syrup if you are that weak. Wish I would've known sooner. :)



So yeah, I cheated. I had a salad and a little bit of grilled chicken. Oh, and the piece of toast that Matt force fed me on the floor. Ha! I cannot believe I cheated, but gosh. I am so glad I did. In the book, they say to listen to your body and if something doesn't feel right, it probably isn't. They also urge you to push through and overcome the psychological need to eat. I am just mad at myself for not getting enough of the drink in the first place. I have also been thinking about some other things. I had to do a complete cleanse for my colonoscopy about six months ago, and then recently I did an Herbal Cleanse that definitely cleaned me out, but I wasn't sure if it did much. I was reading about how people take several days to get to the liquid BM stage (like day 3 or 4) and about the nasty black tar stuff that had been built up for decades that supposedly is "cleansed" right out of you. I was at the liquid stage on day 1 or so. I guess that proves that I wasn't as toxic as I thought and maybe I didn't need this cleanse just right yet. Geeze, I hate even saying that. I did, however, get rid of a UTI, a yeast infection, clear up my excema on the back of my arms on tops of my legs, AND....dun dun dun...kick the caffeine addiction. I could oh so easily slide right back into the tasty diet coke zero (or my fave diet vanilla coke zero), but I am aware of how much sodium is in diet drinks and everything else! I wasn't aware how much sodium I was actually consuming.

Anyway, I plan to slowly go off the cleanse. Plus we have the retreat this Friday through Sunday. We'll see what happens with my eating and my weight and my insides! :)